Seattle and Me

Well I am 15 days away from my 23rd Birthday. Hard to believe that I am turning 23 seems unreal. Some times I feel that time is going to fast. But that is life, I always planned my life to be that by this point I would be engaged or married looking for a house and then in about 2 or 3 years having my first of about 2 or 3 children. It's crazy how life just changes in a blink of an eye, I have done things in my pas that I am not proud of because I just wanted the change to be covered by more change, Change was the hardest when I lost Jake my little brother when he was only 17 years old. I thought life was so unfair and didn't want to live out my dreams anymore, because Jake wasn't able to live out his dreams. But I changed that Attitude to living in his memory doing things that he would have wanted to see me do. Starting school and planning out my future. Then I changed that to finding a man that would treat me well and  love me for me.  But it all comes down to just making

Well I did it, I have a fantasy football team. I blame it all on Devin, but this will probably be easier for the fact that it will keep me busy while Devin does his team too.  I am excited, in this last year I have made some good changes as well as finding me again. I didn't think that it would ever happen but it did. I missed me and I am becoming  more of who I should have and not someone that I don't want to be. The cloud is finally gone and I can see the sun. Oh how I have missed this side of me, I have been gone for so long.   Devin showed me a lot more in life that I forgot was really there. I don't think that I can ever thank him for what he has done for me. I have him my whole heart and and even tho it was in pieces he held those pieces together and made it whole again. Truly whole again.

 Sometimes I forgot all the wonderful people that I have in my life. The people that have been in my life as well as the people that I just met a year ago, I feel as tho I have known them my entire life that is the most amazing feeling in the world.   I guess that would go well with the fact that Devin is my best friend and I want to be with him my whole life, he understands me and loves me for my past and present. Sometimes I feel that I can so him how much I love him as well as I want too. I know someday that I will tho.

Well all I can say is that I am bored and really wanted to type something. I can't lie I missed myspace and blogging on there, But this is much better.   I was born and raised in Michigan, many people when I tell them that they say Minnisota close but not so much lol.  It's been an amazing time here in Seattle though, I have an amazing man as well as an adorable puppy name Leeloo. She is almost 3 months old.   Also, I never imagined myself here in the big city but its nice and there is so much to explore. I am going back to school as soon as my man is done with grad. school. Not sure where but I will be finishing my degree in Ele. education.